TIME FOR ANOTHER QUIZ
My fav line: "You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance. " HAHAHAHA. Gotta love that! Yeah, I really should be studying... |
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INDESCRIBABLE
So I went to the service last night where Chris Tomlin, Matt Redman & Louie Gigli0 came to Willowcreek to celebrate it's 30th aniversary. For those of you who don't know, Willowcreek is this really huge church out in the boonies (Simon compared it to the Air Canada Center) that's had a really big impact around the world this past little while.
I had gone to visit when everyone came down for Thanksgiving and although the new auditorium wasn't filled on that Sunday, it certainly was filled last night. In fact, every seat in all the balconies were filled. To top it off, their "old" auditorium was filled; as well as the overflow room. It was nuts. I have never been in a place where SO MANY people gathered just to worship our God. It was a very humbling moment.
Have you ever had one of those moments? I get them once in a while on Sundays when I'm at service. I'll be sitting there and suddenly think of my parents, how they're probably at church too...and how many other churches are filled or how many other groups are coming together all around the world to pray to our Lord. How worthy is He! Just the thought fills me with awe. Doesn't it ever make you wonder why we get together? Doesn't it make you want understand who this God is that we worship? What is it about Him that draws so many people and changes so many lives?
I do. And I pray that as I continue to seek Him, that this desire will just burn deeper and stronger. They were saying last night that Willowcreek started out as a small youth group...God sure can do amazing things if we're willing to be used by Him.
Indescribable,
uncontainable,
You put the stars in the sky
and you know them by name.
You are amazing God!
All powerful,
unchangeable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees
and we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God,
you are amazing God.
Indescribable,
uncontainable,
You see the depths of my heart
and you love me the same
You are amazing God!
~By Chris Tomlin
I heard that the group is going to be in Toronto. I recommend you go to see it. =)
EVEN MORE CONFUSED
I just found out I'm class rep. I'm shocked and pleased...but also very confused. Words of wisdom anyone? In need of more prayer.
TOPICS
#1. So I was doing my usual check-up on blogs and it seems as though no one's been updating recently other than Mike and Jolyn. What's up with that? But then I realized who am I to talk since I haven't been consistent either. My guess is that everyone's busy with midterms and living an exciting life...one that doesn't require the escape through blogging. It's coming down to the last 2 weeks for the quarter for me (ie. finals are closer than I care to imagine) so of course, I shall be slacking off and begin blogging again =)
#2. I did something last week that is completely out of character for me and I'm still trying to come to terms with my actions. I decided to run for the position of class rep. You guys know me: I care too much about what others think of me so I'm definitely not one to be involved with anything that requires voting (too many memories of being picked last for sports as a kid), especially when it's 150 of your classmates. I think everyone was surprised that I ran, even my close friends. It's like running for student council in high school - you normally know people, and even though I'm nice, I'm not exactly extroverted. Oh well, this is all besides the point. I ran cuz I care about my classmates and thought that I would do the job well. Is it what I'm suppose to do? I don't think so. It's weird, I ran but I don't think I'm suppose to be class rep. And here's where coming to terms with my actions takes place. I think I've seriously messed things up cuz I tried to take things into my own hands again, doing what I thought was right and good. Above all else, Thy will be done. Is is wrong to still be happy about doing something even though it wasn't what you're suppose to do? I'm glad I submitted my name and said my speech. I'm glad I got the chance share my thoughts with my classmates and friends. Most of all, I'm glad that I faced my fear head-on...not that it's still not there but I didn't run away and hide from it. Is that good or bad? What is the purpose of fear? Is there a time when you should listen to fear (other than in life-threatening situations)?
#3. What do you guys think about meeting someone on-line? It seems to be more common down here in the states, at least at this school...I've heard it at least twice now. I've always been skeptical about it, probably cuz I used to pretend to be different of ppl in chat rooms when I was younger. I know - I'm terrible. But the conversation came up and the reasoning behind it was that you're in school all the time (and our school is small) so you don't really get a chance to meet other people. Which started to make me wonder...how do you meet people once you've graduated? I look at some of my single friends in Chicago, and I realized that it's true...they all just hang out with each other. So the only time there are changes in dynamics is if someone new joins the group - in which case, they'd be "fresh meat". I know a lot of times it's through your friends, but what if you've met their friends already or there is none? Even in those cases, I wouldn't have thought to go on-line but it seems to be working out for them so far - maybe it'll be a possibility in the future(?) *laughs* I don't know why, but I have this bad connotation that finding someone on-line is something that you do when you're not attractive and desperate. And it's totally not true! My classmates could totally find someone to date through the "traditional" means if they wanted to, it just so happened that they went through the internet instead. So now my old roommate is trying to get me to find someone online but...
#4. ...I'm actually perfectly happy where I am right now. It's odd cuz back in high school, I've always been the type of person who wanted to date and wasn't satisfied unless there was someone to obsess over. Now, I look at all these people around me who are in relationships and I thank God that I'm not. That's horrible isn't it? I should be thankful just in and of itself, not by comparison. To see people so focused on their significant others or to see them in pain and suffering...and I'm grateful that I'm not in their position. Doesn't that sound so pretentious? It's so selfish of me to think so but I can't help it. Not to say that I'm not moved when to see some of my friends so thoughtful and soo in love and that I don't sympathize when see my other friends going through their struggles...I am and I do! But in the end, I look at all of the emotional rollercoaster that's involved and I think that there are better ways I want to spend my energy. So yeah...I guess that just means I'm not ready for a romatic relationship yet! *grin* My roommate, the one I mentioned above, thinks that I'm just scared and that I need to get out cuz otherwise I'd get rusty. It's possible that I'm scared...at times I think might be, but is it possible to be rusty? I mean, isn't it just like hanging out with someone and getting to know them better? I assume that's how all relationships are approached and as long as you maintain your friendships, you shouldn't be rusty right?
That's a wrap of topics discussed when we really should've been studying for the pharm test that we had today...maybe then I could've done better!
BTW, I got my first piece of mail today that was addressed to Dr. Vanessa Wong. Doesn't that look weird?!! Obviously they didn't realize that I haven't graduated yet but I completely forgot that this will be how I am addressed after I'm done school. There's a big "whoa..."
OVERWHELMED WITH LOVE
So I was sitting at dinner on Friday night surrounded by family & friends and couldn’t help but start tearing up when I realized just how loved I am. It’s weird cuz only recently, I started having doubts about a lot of things in terms of my relationships with people and here was God blatantly reminding me that He is always at work. Praise God for His continuous faithfulness even when I lose faith. Cam, Irene and Simon came down with my parents this year to visit me and tour Chicago. Their attempted surprise didn’t go as planned since I walked up to the car that they were hiding in while looking for my parents but it was still exciting. I have the most awesome friends! And of course, my parents…whatever will I do without them? They would go to the ends of the earth just to see me.
So we went to Joy Yee’s on Friday after dropping off the bags. It’s the best Chinese food in Chinatown that I’ve had and everyone that I’ve brought there so far agrees with me. I think it’s the fresh fruit drinks that tips the balance. Afterwards, stayed up late chatting of course even though it was a long day for everyone.
Saturday morning, we left to go outlet shopping and I got my birthday present – a cell phone!! Finally, at the age of 23, I have my own cell…I know it takes me a while to follow trends (personal cell phones became popular in high school right?) but I’ve arrived to the 21st century =). I also got a new jacket as a birthday present (my mom said the phone wasn’t a real birthday gift cuz it’s also for emergencies…I’m willing to believe it although I know it’s just an excuse for my parents to spoil me). I splurged on a new wallet – it was more expensive than the one I currently have (granted I got it for 10 bucks at an Esprit outlet when I was in grade 8) but I figured since my old one lasted for so long...this will be another one of those “investment” deals. We went to Maggiano’s for dinner...the most “bang for the buck” I’ve had in terms of fine dining. Granted the wait was 1 and 1/2 hrs long but it was definitely well worth it! I have so much leftovers in my fridge right now - my meals are sooo set for the next few days. After being stuffed silly, we ended up just hanging out in my room while slowly digesting our food. It’s so much fun just to sit around and chat with friends back at home...everyone should come down for a visit!! *grin* I know, I know...now I'm just being greedy.
Sunday morning, we woke up early to go to Willowcreek for service. I haven’t been there since my interview and they’ve totally renovated the place since then. It’s so huge! But the sermon was as impactful as the last time I went. God is doing some crazy things with that place. I kind of want to go there again – apparently they’re having a worship concert with Chris Tomlin, Matt Redman, and some others, just for people who go to their services. Too bad I don’t have a car. After church, we went to Giordano’s for Chicago’s famous deep-dish pizza. In my opinion, still not comparable to our dinner from the night before but I guess it’s like comparing apples and oranges. We had a hard time finding unblocked roads since the Chicago Marathon was happening. We ended up parking a few blocks away down by the University of Illinois – Chicago and walked instead. It was so cool cuz I actually saw someone I knew running - Gooo Manlee! What are the odds of that in a marathon this big?! After lunch we did the tourist thing, going to see Buckingham Fountain, the big silver bean and walking around Millenium Park. Today was the perfect weather. And then we had to say our goodbyes after which I totally crashed for 2 hrs.
That pretty much sums up my fun-filled weekend. Thanks again for coming down guys - I really appreciate it! Now back to reality…
SOMETHING'S UP, BUT WHAT?
Sorry guys...I finally had a long enough break over the weekend to blog and I didn't. Honestly, I wasn't that I didn't want t...I just lost what I had to share. It was rough at school last week so I seemed to have lost my focus a bit. So of course, I do my other extreme and had a fun/no work all weekend splurge. This does nothing but add to my lack of focus cuz now I can't get back into study mode either.
I know I don't normally list out what I did (cuz I think it's boring) but I feel like I should blog and I'm not right enough in the head to sort out my most recent thoughts:
I miss late nite conversations (in person or on the phone). It seems as though I've got this mindset that school is important and I should get enough sleep for classes. What is THAT all about? I never thought that a day in my life until I got here.
I saw Wicked on friday. It's an awesome show and I recommend it to everyone. I have forgotten how much I love watching musicals. I really should go to more. I'm excited for RENT to come out in theatres. Reminds me of high school and Tee. After the musical, I went out to a club with some first years. I enjoy dancing and they were playing good songs but it also felt weird. I don't know how else to describe it. As much as I like to dance, I think I've moved away from the club scene. Maybe I'll pick up line dancing instead.
Ever get that nagging feeling like something's wrong but you don't know what? Or you have an inkling of what may be wrong but don't know how to approach it so you just pretend it's not there and hopefully it'll go away?
I had another bad dream last nite. It's been a while since I've had one but this was particularly creepy. I dreamt that there was this little boy who found a skeletal remains of an older boy cemented into the sidewalk. At the urging of these two winged things, he took a big axe and was trying to shatter the skull but it only broke off into smaller chucks. His mentality was that the older boy was evil and he had to destroy it. The older boy really was evil but the little boy was also becoming evil because he followed through with the persuasions of the winged demons. It was like the skeletal remains were possessed and controlling those winged thingys. The worse part is that I can still picture how the remains are cemented in even as I type this.
Yeah...I don't know why I dreamt that. I was not watching or reading anything remotely related to this last night or any other night (I guess the winged demons could be similar to the flying monkeys in the musical). So yes, any suggestions on how to stop me from having bad dreams would be greatly appreciated.