THE SIMPLE LIFE

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#1. So I was doing my usual check-up on blogs and it seems as though no one's been updating recently other than Mike and Jolyn. What's up with that? But then I realized who am I to talk since I haven't been consistent either. My guess is that everyone's busy with midterms and living an exciting life...one that doesn't require the escape through blogging. It's coming down to the last 2 weeks for the quarter for me (ie. finals are closer than I care to imagine) so of course, I shall be slacking off and begin blogging again =)

#2. I did something last week that is completely out of character for me and I'm still trying to come to terms with my actions. I decided to run for the position of class rep. You guys know me: I care too much about what others think of me so I'm definitely not one to be involved with anything that requires voting (too many memories of being picked last for sports as a kid), especially when it's 150 of your classmates. I think everyone was surprised that I ran, even my close friends. It's like running for student council in high school - you normally know people, and even though I'm nice, I'm not exactly extroverted. Oh well, this is all besides the point. I ran cuz I care about my classmates and thought that I would do the job well. Is it what I'm suppose to do? I don't think so. It's weird, I ran but I don't think I'm suppose to be class rep. And here's where coming to terms with my actions takes place. I think I've seriously messed things up cuz I tried to take things into my own hands again, doing what I thought was right and good. Above all else, Thy will be done. Is is wrong to still be happy about doing something even though it wasn't what you're suppose to do? I'm glad I submitted my name and said my speech. I'm glad I got the chance share my thoughts with my classmates and friends. Most of all, I'm glad that I faced my fear head-on...not that it's still not there but I didn't run away and hide from it. Is that good or bad? What is the purpose of fear? Is there a time when you should listen to fear (other than in life-threatening situations)?

#3. What do you guys think about meeting someone on-line? It seems to be more common down here in the states, at least at this school...I've heard it at least twice now. I've always been skeptical about it, probably cuz I used to pretend to be different of ppl in chat rooms when I was younger. I know - I'm terrible. But the conversation came up and the reasoning behind it was that you're in school all the time (and our school is small) so you don't really get a chance to meet other people. Which started to make me wonder...how do you meet people once you've graduated? I look at some of my single friends in Chicago, and I realized that it's true...they all just hang out with each other. So the only time there are changes in dynamics is if someone new joins the group - in which case, they'd be "fresh meat". I know a lot of times it's through your friends, but what if you've met their friends already or there is none? Even in those cases, I wouldn't have thought to go on-line but it seems to be working out for them so far - maybe it'll be a possibility in the future(?) *laughs* I don't know why, but I have this bad connotation that finding someone on-line is something that you do when you're not attractive and desperate. And it's totally not true! My classmates could totally find someone to date through the "traditional" means if they wanted to, it just so happened that they went through the internet instead. So now my old roommate is trying to get me to find someone online but...

#4. ...I'm actually perfectly happy where I am right now. It's odd cuz back in high school, I've always been the type of person who wanted to date and wasn't satisfied unless there was someone to obsess over. Now, I look at all these people around me who are in relationships and I thank God that I'm not. That's horrible isn't it? I should be thankful just in and of itself, not by comparison. To see people so focused on their significant others or to see them in pain and suffering...and I'm grateful that I'm not in their position. Doesn't that sound so pretentious? It's so selfish of me to think so but I can't help it. Not to say that I'm not moved when to see some of my friends so thoughtful and soo in love and that I don't sympathize when see my other friends going through their struggles...I am and I do! But in the end, I look at all of the emotional rollercoaster that's involved and I think that there are better ways I want to spend my energy. So yeah...I guess that just means I'm not ready for a romatic relationship yet! *grin* My roommate, the one I mentioned above, thinks that I'm just scared and that I need to get out cuz otherwise I'd get rusty. It's possible that I'm scared...at times I think might be, but is it possible to be rusty? I mean, isn't it just like hanging out with someone and getting to know them better? I assume that's how all relationships are approached and as long as you maintain your friendships, you shouldn't be rusty right?

That's a wrap of topics discussed when we really should've been studying for the pharm test that we had today...maybe then I could've done better!

BTW, I got my first piece of mail today that was addressed to Dr. Vanessa Wong. Doesn't that look weird?!! Obviously they didn't realize that I haven't graduated yet but I completely forgot that this will be how I am addressed after I'm done school. There's a big "whoa..."