THE SIMPLE LIFE

I WANT TO HURL

I'm seeing my first patient tomorrow. The thought is making my stomach queasy. Seriously, I want to throw up. AHHH! I know my stuff...I KNOW I do. I know enough to get through the exam. But why are my fingers are shaking as I type this?

I can't let my nerves get the best of me. That's how I'm going to screw up. If I act confident, I'll be fine. I know I will. I'm just not very confident at the moment.

Reminds me of all those stupid piano competitions. If I am confident, I do well. If I allow myself to get nervous, I mess up. Can't...Be...Nervous!


Okay, let's change the subject.

Did 25 km on a bike today for The American Cancer Society. We finished in 2 hrs...apparently, that's not very good time. Oh well, I'm just proud I finished it. =P I actually reached the point where it was easier on my legs to ride instead of walk. It was kind of cool that if I pushed myself hard enough, the pain goes away after a while. Of course, I am SOO incredibly sore right now and I know it's just going to worse tomorrow. I don't think I've ever felt my muscles cramp up like this before. How am I suppose to wear heels for clinic tomorrow?!! Just like me to not think ahead prior to signing up for something.

The few days I was back were bittersweet. I cried every single day. I think crying has become a normal response for me now. It never used to be this way. I use to throw temper tantrums instead. i guess this is better; easier to manage.

Any way, I haven't missed my parents as much as I thought ever since coming back. I had my day of 'mourning' after the plane ride but even then, I've had a sense of peace through it all. I think it was cuz of Scripture and also the reminder I got that if I don't focus on where God has placed me, I'm going to miss all the opportunities He's given. Praise God for keeping me so busy since I've been back that I haven't even really had time to wallow in self-pity. It has helped to keep my focus on what's ahead (and above! *wink*)

I've been meditating on the words of Psalm 103 recently. Take a gander if you will; perhaps you may find joy and peace in them as well. =)


ohh...Since Iv posted his availability. I'll do that too!
May 27-May 29 (Memorial day weekend - US equivalent to May 2-4)
July 1-July 5 (nothing; not even clinic!)
Aug 3-Aug 10 (no classes, just clinic)
Aug 11 - Aug 20 (completely free/clinic maybe? Discrepency between calender & student guide; I should probably verify that)